Judy Price is Writing

Well, I finally opened the bubbly; however, not to welcome the new year, but rather to drown my sorrows. 

Not a good start to 2010 I would say.  Things can always be worse, I know.

My younger daughter is experiencing tumultuous times on the career front.  Her value has been overlooked by her former employer, and now with the difficult economy she is on her own.  She is developing a terrific website and her creativity and talent shine. 

I try to be supportive and I believe in her.  She needs to be strong and believe in herself.

As a mother, I admit I have been overprotective of my offspring.  A bit like a mother bear is how I saw myself when they were young, protecting them at all costs.  Now that they are adults, well-educated, and independent, I find it easier to let go.

When I see their vulnerabilities, like at present with my youngest, I find myself reverting back to that ‘mother bear’, and need to remind myself there is nothing I can do.  I just need to be supportive, silently if need be.

I am also confronting my own vulnerability on the ‘man front’.  Trying to be non-committal and logical is not in my nature, and yet this is what I am trying to be with my most recent male interest.  It is driving me to ‘drink’!  Not a good thing, and I need to be me once again, at the risk of ending what barely began.